Emotions Unabated!!

Ohk...as the trend goes,lemme tell you I wrote this in a bus....on my way to the campus,n after giving it a read....you'll understand my state of mind then...so go ahead:

SOmetimes words are hard to find,one feels like saying something but is not able to do so,the words do not somehow come out,probably the heart doesn't allow the outflow,some fear haunts the person,the fear of being rejected,rejected by someone one doesnt want to lose,the world seems to be fading away,nothing seems to help,smile is forcefully brought in response to some nice joke so that others do no feel neglected,one can't concentrate on anything,be it the most adored thing one does, a soulful old melody sets the mood,no thoughts about what to do,no dilemmas as to say it or not,day fades away like anything,night is difficult to pass,one feels like trying the most innovative of things,one loves to talk endlessly about things that never mattered,just talk so that the same thoughts do not haunt him again,sleep more so that he doesnt have to wake up to the same melancholy life,doesn't matter to him the sun doesn't even rise,that matters is the moon doesn't set making the difficult to pass nights still impossible,every ring seems like her sms,her missed call,somehow if she would say it by herself and one could just be needed to give an affirmative,life would have been so much easier,and why not,doesn't she have the same feelings,what if she doesn't,how is he going to live the rest of his life,how will he survive,will he be able to do it again ,and that too with the same intensity,the same interest,the same craziness in heart,will things ever turn up his way,will life ever be straight,straight enough to allow a person a stressfree life,a life which he can live without fear,the fear of rejection,what could be the reasons that come in the way,another person,a better alternative,why,is he not good,yes he is but can't there be a better one,but does that mean he won't get anyone,anyone to listen to him,to give him a hug in the most difficult of times,to move her hand over his cheek saying everything's gonna be alright'that you don't need to worry coz i'll be there for you,always,even when nobody is,wont he ever get someone coz a better one would always take her away,isn't anyone made for him,will his life always be the same way it has always been,soulless as he feels so!!!!!!!!!